I FUCKING HATE FOLLOW TRAINS. GET THE FUCK OUT WITH THAT SHIT. THIS IS NOT MYSPACE, GODDAMMIT.
Let me just say something, okay. I AM 13. I will be 14 on October 23rd. I just so happen to have feelings for someone who is 18. Yes, that’s a slight bit of age difference. But, I’m tired of people telling me that it’s “not going to work”, “you don’t know what love is”, “you’re too young”, etc. How about, it’s my feelings we’re talking about here. Not yours, not anyone else’s. MINE. I don’t fucking care what you think about it, but why don’t you think about how you would feel if someone tried to tell you that the way you feel about someone is wrong, or stupid, or whatever else you guys are saying to me about it. Just because I’m younger than my friends, or the people I have feelings for, DOESN’T MEAN that I’m some sort of “whore”. I’m sorry, but I don’t force them to associate with me. I don’t force them to like me, or talk to me, or hang out with me. They do it themselves because they like the kinda of person that I am. They don’t like me based on my AGE.
So, if you have a problem with how old I am, or how I make decisions about my life, or who I like, and want to have a relationship with, then you can FUCK OFF, and unfollow me right now.
DEAR SHITTY INTERNET,
ALL I’M TRYING TO DO IS HAVE A NICE, CUTE SKYPE DATE WITH ZACH SINCE I HAVEN’T HAD ONE IN 4 DAYS. COULD YOU PLEASE STOP BEING A CUNT, AND LET ME SEE HIS GORGEOUS FACE, FOR FUCK’S SAKE?/?!//1/1?1?!
I need to stop thinking so deeply about things.
I have too much free time. For the past hour, I’ve just been sitting around thinking about basically everything, and breaking down because I’m horribly discontent with my life. I’ve come to some pretty shitty realizations about everything.
I don’t have many close friends. I have a very small amount of friends in general, really. And I can’t consider most of them “best friends” because I feel like I consider them a best friend, when I’m just a friend to them. Most friends that I’ve had over the course of the past two years or so have just moved on and drifted from me. I’m in constant fear of making new friends for the fact that I feel like they’ll betray me. I get jealous over the friends that I do have because I’m afraid that they will find someone far better than me, and just forget me like everyone else has. I hate when one of my “close friends” hang out with someone else alot, because I’m afraid they’ll just forget about me. I’m letting the fear or being alone and forgotten eat away at me. I hate the fact that I feel like everyone has a best friend, when I feel like everyone is against me. Not alot of people like me where I live, and they make it known. I’m not like people at my school, so they rule me out as an outcast, and someone who is weird. It really bothers me when I feel like I have to hold everything in because I feel that if I talk about it to someone, that they’ll just disregard my feelings, and not give a fuck. The one girl who used to be my “best friend”, now hates me and is dating the guy who I had my longest, and first serious relationship with. Most of the people who I considered my “best friends” now hate my guts, and don’t want anything to do with me.
It’s gradually starting to dawn on me that basically the only person that I feel secure with, or that is there for me, is moving 12 hours away, and is going to be in a different place constantly playing shows. It really fucking sucks that whenever someone good come into my life, they’re slowly ripped away from it. Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t the end of me and Zach, it’s just going to be fucking difficult, and the strain of it all isn’t going to make anything better.
I’m almost to the point where I just feel like being a bitch to people all the time so I won’t have a reason to even try. No one is trying for me, so why the fuck should I try for others? I don’t want to have to resort to living like that, but that might be what it has to come to.
I’m growing so distant from everyone because I feel like no one even cares to have anything to do with me.
Soo0o0oo, I think you all should do TMI Tuesday for me.
Since none of you ever do. I’d like to answer some ACTUAL questions that you all would like to know about me. Or maybe if you’re just nosy. That could work too. But, really. I’d like it.
You can put whatever the hell your little hearts desire in there.
- Tell me what you honestly think about me.
- Tell me something about yourself.
- Let me help you with a problem of yours.
- Tell me your deepest darkest secret.
- Ask me something about myself that you’ve always wanted to know.
constantly feeling completely and totally alone blog ‘10.
I just ate a double cheeseburger in literally 2 minutes.
…..I’ll be hungry again in like 10.
IF I BLOW OUT MY EAR TRYING TO DO THIS SHIT I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD.
EXCUSE ME BUT WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID.
oh, and i might be getting braces.
I wonder if anyone has ever gotten REALLY excited that I started following them.